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I have been here for a long time, and have been ttc longer than that. I decided to post here to lessen the stress and to vent and pray and hope for the impossible. I start my first BCP pill in around the 24-26th of April.
If anyone has questions that pertain to ttc, they can email me at ladygrayer@sbcglobal.net and ask here as well. I know that I will have the support of the true friends that I hold very dear on here and will not stress over any excess above just the IVF cycle itself because this is a very hormone filled time and emotional time because of meds and such. I will try to keep my journey as up to date as possible and continue to support you all.
Thank you in advance for your love , thoughts and respect.

Kim
ttc since March of 2006
1st IVF BFN

Come on ride that train and ride it.......YAY! : ) I'm so excited that you finally get to start. I'm here for you whenever and for whatever you may need.

((((hugs)))

Thats exactly what i intend to do..thank you Jules..you are one of a kind.Muah!

Kim
ttc since March of 2006
1st IVF BFN

Kim,
Do you blog? Just curious. I started blogging to do the same thing (vent, focus on ttc) and there are a ton of women going through IVF or who have gone through it too. If you want I can find some links for you? I don't know if that would help at all.

Anyway, bring on April!! :)

Mel

DD 4/2007
started ttc #2 10/07
miscarriage July 2008
chemical pregnancy June 2009

I will have my own journal,Mel. and I think for me that is one of the best outlets for me at this time.

Kim
ttc since March of 2006
1st IVF BFN

How did I miss this? Oh, I know because BM is crappity right now. every time I try to log on it is down.....

I am so excited for you. If I had an extra $20K right now I jump on that bandwagon with you.

You have my full support and encouragment. I am here for whatever you need.
ape

Mommy to:
Josh 14 years old
Melody (11/11/07)
Cadence (due 2/17/10)
6 angels playing in heaven
6/6/09 BFP
Beta 13 DPO: 97
Beta 15 DPO: 251
6/22/09 Hearbeat! (5.5 weeks)

~Kim~

I am stalking this post now.... hope u don't mind.

~Amy~

Amy (26) & Jon (29)
Baby #1 & #2 on board! (Twins!!!)

Thanks Ape...I appreciate it. I know the waiting is sucking for me...ugh
I appreciate it..are u gonna ask about PGD?

Amy,
I wanna choke you so bad...i was worried but didn't email again, and thank God you replied..I swear-I need to call you.I think they have my dates so wrong.

Kim
ttc since March of 2006
1st IVF BFN

I really am sorry it took me so long i have had the week from hell.

~Amy~

Amy (26) & Jon (29)
Baby #1 & #2 on board! (Twins!!!)

Hi Kim,
I am soooo glad you are posting your IVF journey here. You are absolutely right - it is a very emotional time for a lot of reasons. I will be here to support you as for me it wasn't nearly as bad as I thought it would be. I think having acupuncture immediately before and after the transfer really helped.

I will be praying the entire time for you as I am confident the first time will bring you the baby you have waited all too long for. As you said, just take it one step at a time and it won't seem overwhelming. I did the same thing.

Ape is right - BM has a lot of problems. I couldn't get on earlier after I posted in the 2WW. When I got on tonight - I can't read any of my posts in full as they are 1/5th the size they should be as everthing is cut off. Luckily I saw enough of your post to understand you were posting in the IVF section.

I may still be right behind you in this IVF journey.
Steph

Steph,
Thanks, I really appreciate it.. i have been overly emotional lately..did u go through this? I mean the what ifs, and the apprehension of side affects of the shots, the 2 hour trips and staying with dh's sister, the kids will be with their dad(no matter where they are, i always worry) and dh is a beacon of support but I miss having my parents to share (especially Mom) and I guess i just got used to the fact that I am barren. Dh says i can be the most confident and positive for everyone but so hopeless for myself. I told him I had high hopes when i had the tubal reversal but month after month that turned into years and not even a positive pregnancy test has made me old mentally. I appreciate you and want to be a support for you also. No matter what you decide on pregnancy.

Kim
ttc since March of 2006
1st IVF BFN

Don't worry Amy, I'm stalking Kim's post too. LOL I'm also stalking yours. : )

How are you guys doing?

I don't mind if u stalk...i wanna stalk Julie but I can't figure out whats going on with her FET!!lmaoo..twins again ,Julie?

Kim
ttc since March of 2006
1st IVF BFN

Kim- I cannot imagine how many different emotions you are surely experiencing at the same time! I am ignorant to the IVF process and I know that I am new here but I can't wait to listen/read and help support you through this!

TTC #1 with 100mg of Clomid

GaWife,
Thanks very much. I appreciate it..I am an emotional rollercoaster and can't wait to begin, yet I am just starting to process that I am doing it...its really happening soon!!

Kim
ttc since March of 2006
1st IVF BFN

I say ride that roller coaster for all it's worth! Scare the crap out of people at stores, and make people cringe.... that is what i'm doing.
ape

Mommy to:
Josh 14 years old
Melody (11/11/07)
Cadence (due 2/17/10)
6 angels playing in heaven
6/6/09 BFP
Beta 13 DPO: 97
Beta 15 DPO: 251
6/22/09 Hearbeat! (5.5 weeks)

I tend to try to shop online...just so i don't act a fool..im really trying...im failing miserably... i have taken up meditating....it doesn't work real well..i get sidetracked..

Kim
ttc since March of 2006
1st IVF BFN

Hi Kim,
I could finally read your posts and the other ladies posts on my 2WW thread. I didn't really go through the what-if's. I must have had my head buried in the sand. I'm an eternal optimist and have rarely been a realist. This can be both good and bad.

As a result, I just automatically assumed that IVF would work the first time. I was shocked and stunned when it didn't. I went through the "OMG's" when I found out they retrieved 11 eggs and only 4 were mature. Ugghhh.... That is when reality set in somewhat for me but then I said well, they will only place 3 in me anyhow and we have 4 so I'm good to go. I am not a worrier when I'm getting help i.e. ART. I'm more of a worrier with my natural cycles but yet I have only conceived naturally and never with ART so go figure....

Later, at my consultation with the RE in NYC he said that they made a mistake and retrieved my eggs one day too early in his opinion. Soooo.... I don't know what to think about IVF for me. That made me an optimist again but I now realize that age definitely makes a huge difference and those under 40 have excellent success rates so I'm confident all will go well for you. I'm in a whole other boat.

I'll be with you and support you as I know this is not easy. I think AF will be here tomorrow - that's when she's due.
Steph

My FertilChart™

Hi Steph!! Im so excited to hear from you.

I never looked from it from your point of view. I just think alot of mine has to do with my anxiety disorder. I am trying to get over this and just trust my RE..he is afterall, a wonderful talented very upbeat confident guy.

I have to say that I do not think 40 has anything to do with age. I disbute all the age thing..I think it depends on 50% genetics and 50%stress free..i need to work on the stress free part. I have had a really horrible week with that. (had nothing to do with IVF)

I have kinda slacked off my weight loss and working out ..so i have to get back into that. Quick, if you know what I mean? I haven't gained but i feel more flabby and it affects my overall overlook of daily life. Exercise does indeed make me a healthier person totally.

So, AF will be here soon? Do you think you will do the BCP's with the Lupron? I wont have my u/s-mock transfer till the 26th of April if my cycle cooperates... Then i will start the IVF journey with BCP's for 3 weeks,overlapping Lupron and suppression, then stims and so on....

I am not getting my hopes up because i have been told it doesn't work on the first time or the statistics are low...we will see..I wish i could just believe but , alas, I am used to things going sour, so to say.

So, thanks for cheering me on, I can be totally positive about everyone else but myself.Imagine that,eh?

Kim
ttc since March of 2006
1st IVF BFN

Kim,
I dont see why it wouldn't work on the first attempt for you. I am also an optimist. I go inot every pregnancy thinking that this will work etc.......

You are going to do just fine. If I need to come out there and be your cheerleader I will.
Aep

Mommy to:
Josh 14 years old
Melody (11/11/07)
Cadence (due 2/17/10)
6 angels playing in heaven
6/6/09 BFP
Beta 13 DPO: 97
Beta 15 DPO: 251
6/22/09 Hearbeat! (5.5 weeks)